Waltzing Back
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Posted on May 02, 2010Well I have realized that I have neglected this place for some time and I also realize that it has come time that I start blogging daily so I can remain sane. After all, my blogs are usually a censored diary that help me rationally analyze the situations or feelings I am in.
So yesterday I went to the beach with one of my girlfriends. It was pretty fun, we talked of the usual stuff — work, men, life, love, age, flaws, strengths, etc.
She will be going back to school for nursing soon, I on the other hand am not so sure I will be doing so. One fact I know about myself is that I am not very disciplined for general academics.
Couple updates:
I aquired a new car.
I have since gotten a scratch caused by only me.
I haven’t made the first car payment.
The fix costs more than the payment.
Could have gotten the windows tinted twice for such an amount.
Changes
Posted on October 15, 2009I have been reading Buddhism: Plain and Simple and it talks about how things in our world, people especially, are in constant flux. We are constantly changing and the reason I bring this up is because I feel something is not right. Now, a normal person would usually go to a doctor if things just didn’t seem right, but in this day and age, the norm are few and far between so now we blog instead.
I have been getting nauseous almost daily and very clammy sometimes. My moods which can be usually even keel–well, only at work–are becoming more irrational and erratic even at work. My headaches are out of this world. Bloating and gas have increased also. Could I be pregnant? Maybe. Am I? I don’t know. Do I want to be? Sometimes. Why haven’t I peed on a stick yet? Because I haven’t missed my period yet which is due the 20th.
Reasons Why I Should Not Have A Child Now:
- I live at home with my family. This includes my Mom, Dad, 29 yr old Sister, 5 yr old Nephew, 2 Dogs and 2 Snakes. All in a 3 bedroom home.
- I do not make a livable income.
- I do not have a supportive partner in the picture.
- I still have some growing up to do
- I always wanted the house, career and husband before the baby.
Reasons Why I Should Have A Child Now:
- NONE
Hopefully I am just not well at the moment and once Aunt Flo shows up all will be well. Otherwise, I am screwed. This post just proves how much growing up I have left to do.